The Story Of Magus Chapter 21
Thinking Things Over
By ZealPropht
Magus yawned. He raised one gloved hand and blocked the
view of his tonsils as he covered his mouth. Through blurring eyes he lowered
his hand to the book before him and turned the page. His cheek rested against
the back of his right knuckles since his hand was closed into a fist to support
his head. His arm had long since gone numb, the blood flow having gotten
sluggish somewhere near his bent elbow but he really hadn't noticed until
now. Switching positions in the hard chair that was his seat, he stretched
out his arm and gave a few experimental shakes until the circulation resumed
it's normal path. Leaning his cheek into his left hand, he returned his attention
to the book and it's black lines of text. However, someone kept messing with
the oil lamps that illuminated the room. They kept getting dimmer and dimmer
until they snuffed out and then they flared up brightly again. "Stop that,"
he mumbled irritably, rubbing his eyes with the back of his hand to keep
them open. "Just a little bit more." But it was no use. His eyes seemed
determined to betray him by falling shut.
Ozzie glanced up from the papers he was scribbling on
and looked over the tops of his small spectacles that balanced precariously
on his tiny, almost nonexistent nose. The gold rims flashed a bit in the
light of the lamps and it threw little specks of reflected light on the dozens
of books that lined the walls. Ozzie had left his throne room a few minutes
after Magus had departed to return to his paperwork for the upcoming battles.
However, upon arrival to his study he had found the young mage already pouring
over the texts contained within as if he expected them to run away. The two
had been there for quite some time now, each lost in their own pursuits.
Ozzie was awaiting Slash's return to get his report on the battle while Magus
seemed determined to read every book in the library in one sitting.
Ozzie dipped his quill into the ink pot and added another
stroke to the parchment he was writing on. It held a detailed battle plan
with the position of both the Guardian army and his own. To Magus, who spared
a moment's notice from his reading, it looked like the game the Imps played
involving "exes" and "ohs." That game was hardly an interesting past-time
and with a snort of disgust for his uncultured leader he delved back into
the book he was reading. He hated this author with a vengeance. There was
so much information to be gleaned but the writer had hidden it all within
insufferably dry language that made reading near impossible without falling
asleep. Most of it was nonsense or things he already knew or guessed. But
he valiantly pressed onward in search of any sort of clue as to how he might
once again return to his own time and leave these troubling Mystics behind
him. He had already spotted a few references to Time Gates but had no clue
as to how they worked or how to make one yet. He lowered his sight to yet
another line of drivel he had come to expect from this particular author:
In times past, many people have had cause for speculation
about the mysterious earthquakes and volcanic eruptions that took place during
the early years of our planet's creation. Modern science has determined that
these are, in fact, natural occurrences and not the work of deities as we
had first believed. The myth of the black God known as Lavos can now be laid
to rest. There is no indication whether such a God existed.
While prehistoric peoples once believed such natural
occurrences to be the work of gods or divine spirits, the people of today
know that there are reasonable explanations for such things. Definition Lavos:
a word deriving from the two-part word that means "big fire". (See footnote
on La and Vos) This comet, for it must have been one, crashed into the planet,
bringing on an ice age that lasted for many years. According to recent
excavations of the mountains, Human remains were found buried within, thus
indicating that while this ice age lasted, Humans took shelter within the
many caves through out the land. It wasn't until quite recently that the
ice began to melt and Humans once again were able to live above ground. How
plant life was once again able to spread through such a cold, dark land is
not yet known. Scientists believe that at least one living plant survived
to flourish and the world is now covered with that of it's kin. As to the
current variety of plant life, that is yet another mystery to unlock.
Ozzie was startled by the soft snoring that came from across
the table. Magus, cheek cupped in his hand, had his eyes closed, lips slightly
parted and the first beginnings of drool starting to form in the corner of
his mouth. Ozzie couldn't help but smile at the sight. There he was, the
most powerful magician the world had ever seen, dozing over a book, hair
tussled like a tangled blue curtain around his face and down his back. Fighting
back laughter, he reached over and brushed the feathery part of the pen he
held across Magus' nose. There was a brief moment of stillness and suddenly
the young mage sneezed himself awake. This time the Mystic leader couldn't
hold back his laughter as Janus sat straight up in his chair and looked around
wildly for a moment to get his bearings. "Go to bed, my boy," Ozzie chuckled,
resuming his writing. "It's nearly sunrise. You can finish reading
tomorrow."
"I'm not sleepy," Magus protested as his rubbed his nose,
some childish part of his brain kicking in. Probably due to his weariness,
Ozzie thought to himself. "I want to finish reading this. I only have a hundred
or so pages to go. I'll be done in a few hours. I'll go to bed then." He
pulled the book closer to himself to see the words that swam together in
his vision.
"Nonsense. You're practically passing out right here on
the table. I have work to do and your snoring is blowing my papers around."
"I don't snore!" Magus argued in a huff, giving the best
pout Ozzie had seen since the magician was just a little boy. Leaning back,
he stretched the kinked muscles in his neck and shoulders, rolling them to
relieve some of the strain. "Besides, who made you my nanny? Since when do
you care about my sleeping habits?"
"Since now," the green Mystic snapped, suddenly peeved.
"I have battle plans to work on and watching you sleep is making me
tired." To prove his point, he yawned wide, allowing Magus a good view of
pointy teeth that were getting dull with age. "Besides, you're so out of
it, I doubt you would feel it when your head hits the table top." Magus didn't
move for a moment or two but finally sighed and placed a leather strip in
the book to mark his place before shutting the heavy thing with a "thump."
"You might be correct in saying that," the magician conceded.
He pushed away from the table making a harsh sound with his chair on the
stone floors. It made Ozzie's sensitive hearing slightly painful but it was
over fast. "Perhaps a good sleep and a clear head will allow me a better
understanding of this rubbish." He gestured at the impossible book he'd been
reading with a flip of his hand. Ozzie tapped his pen against his chins
thoughtfully.
"What exactly do you hope to gain from them, my dear Janus?
Is it some sort of spell you're after? A hidden treasure, perhaps?" Though
his tone was innocent, Magus didn't like the crafty look in his supposed
leader's eyes. It was too probing. Carefully he shrugged.
"Nothing as grand as all that. I'm just trying to get
a better understanding of history and magic in general. It gives me something
interesting to do. It keeps me occupied."
Ozzie snorted. "Hmph! Instead of wasting your time with
these dusty books you could be out there doing the job I groomed you for.
Battles don't fight themselves. I know I can't force you to do anything you
don't want to do, but it's such a disappointment to see someone with as much
magical talent as you going to waste."
"I don't like fighting, Ozzie. I never have. I try to
avoid it and only do it when it's necessary."
"But you never really apply yourself," the other pointed
out. "You already made up your mind that you don't like fighting and you
never really gave it a chance to grow on you. Just like any art form, you
have to practice it and study it with an open mind before you grow to get
an understanding of it. It takes time and devotion for many years just to
get a few simple moves mastered and we're not even talking about developing
your own style yet."
Magus leaned forward a little, getting into the discussion,
despite being more asleep then awake. "Any idiot with a sharp object can
kill. It's as simple as that. There is no art involved!"
"Ah, but that is where you are wrong! To be a competent
killer, one must have a certain degree of style and knowledge. Yeah, any
buffoon can hack and bash at others and accomplish the same feat as a master
swordsman. But in say, a tournament, who would be the crowd pleaser?"
"The master swordsman?" Magus ventured. Ozzie spread his
hands before him.
"The answer is obvious, as you can see. Instead of making
a mangled mess of his opponent, a true warrior would go for the swiftest,
cleanest cuts possible, the ones that are most deadly. Later, if they are
good enough, they can toy with their opponents but right now, I think we
should just focus on the beginners." The Mystic leader paused and magicked
up a tea pot and a couple of small bowls. As he poured them both some tea,
he continued. "Now, some people take training to the extreme. In the case
of Slash, he has very well rounded education concerning weaponry. He has
made it a hobby of his to become a master of all weapons, not just his pet,
Slasher. Most people don't bother with all that nonsense and they become
proficient in one weapon alone, say, throwing knives for example. You seem
to have chosen a scythe as your favorite weapon as opposed to your earlier
preference of a sword. However, only knowing about fighting techniques and
weapons isn't going to make you a good warrior. There is an emotional aspect
to it as well."
"Emotional aspect?"
Ozzie stopped talking and regarded Janus for a while in
thought as the young man sipped his hot tea from one of the bowls. Magus
made a slight face since he preferred honey and lemon in his tea but it seemed
that Ozzie liked it straight and plain. He still wore that look when the
green Mystic answered, "Perhaps this is the most important part of any warrior's
training and one that has been overlooked by your teachers. Before I go into
that, can you give me a little idea of what you feel when fighting?"
"Why?" Janus asked, blowing on his tea to cool it before
he took another sip.
"I've only seen you fight one battle and that was with
Flea. I don't know what you're like out there against the Human army. I know
you're not really as cowardly and weak as the troops snicker about you behind
your back. So tell me, what do you feel when you fight?"
Magus studied the bits of herb that floated in his tea.
Not seeing any help there, he said, "I don't know. I never really gave it
much thought."
"C'mon, just try it. Think really hard."
"Well, when I first started fighting, I felt...afraid."
"Good, good," Ozzie beamed, urging his young companion
to continue. "Don't be embarrassed. Just let it out."
"Later, I felt kinda...I don't know. Angry, I guess."
"Do you know why you felt angry?"
"Yeah," Magus answered, a bitter look creeping into his
eyes. "I didn't like what I was doing. I didn't want to hurt people, even
if they were my enemy. I was angry that I didn't have the choice to walk
away from the battle. I was trapped. It was either kill or be killed, as
Drek pointed out. I don't think he ever said anything useful to me while
he was alive besides that one piece of advice."
"Anything else?"
"I felt disgusted with my actions. I don't think I can
ever get the feeling of fresh blood off of my skin. My clothes reek of it.
There are stains from it on everything I own. Some of it is my own blood,
but most of it is from those I have killed. That's part of the reason I started
wearing these gloves." The magician held up his hands and rested his elbows
on the table. He examined the rough leather that encased his slender fingers.
As he had said, they too were smeared with a dark substance that had soaked
into the very fibers of the leather and refused to budge.
Ozzie nodded, also looking at Magus' hands. "I had wondered
why you had taken to wearing them. I must admit, I was curious as to the
reasoning behind the sudden fashion statement. I figured they helped cut
down on wear and tear on your hands when using your scythe. I know I have
seen Slash sometimes use gloves when wielding a heavier blade then he normally
does."
"That's part of the reason. But mostly I wear them because
my hands are so covered with the blood of others that I can't stand to touch
anything anymore. I feel so tainted. I can get over that feeling when I know
I have a layer of leather between my loathsome touch and the object I'm handling.
But it's hard, I will say that. And then the nightmares..." Janus closed
his eyes in remembered pain as images rose up to haunt him.
"I know about the nightmares, my boy. Remember, I'm the
one who usually comes to the rescue when you get them. If I didn't, you'd
probably blow up my poor Fort. I know she's not much, but the old girl is
all I have, really." Ozzie noisily slurped down his tea and poured himself
another shot. "But we're off the subject."
"Yeah." Magus held his cooling tea in his hands, twirling
the liquid a bit to stir up the herbs that had clumped on the bottom. "I
think that I have learned that death is inevitable in war, whether I cause
it or someone else, only if I do it, that person might die cleaner and quicker
then if one of your cronies got hold of them."
Ozzie nodded. "So in essence, you've learned to accept
the fact that you must kill in order to survive."
"I've learned not to put myself in that sort of situation
where I'll have to do so," the magician corrected, setting his tea aside,
no longer interested in drinking it. "Yes, if I have no other alternative,
I will kill. But if there is a way that can be avoided, I'll take it." He
watched as Ozzie contemplated those words before setting his tea on the table
top also.
"Well, you're halfway on the road to becoming a competent
warrior, anyway," he said at last. "You need to work on that emotional aspect
I was speaking of. You need...oh, how can I say this? You need detachment
from the person you are fighting. You're too personal with them. You still
think of them as a person, like yourself, don't you?"
Magus blinked. "Well, yes, of course. It's hard not to
notice that you're fighting someone who might have even been your friend
had circumstances been different."
"But that's the entire problem!" Ozzie declared, taking
off his glasses to clean them on the front of his robe. "You're making this
whole business more complicated then what it's worth. When you start thinking
of the enemy as another living creature you're going to drive yourself to
distraction with all the what ifs. What if that man I killed had a family?
What if they'll starve now that he's gone? What if he's attacking me because
I killed his family? What if? What if? What if?" The green Mystic
shook his head and set his glasses down on the papers he had stacked. "You
can't live your life like that. Already you've fallen into this annoying
depression and guilt-trip. When you can look at your opponent as a target,
a thing to be killed without hesitation, then you'll be the perfect warrior.
When you can accomplish that, you'll find killing to be much easier."
Magus said nothing. He played with a spare quill pen Ozzie
had left lying on the table and his fingers rubbed up and down the feather.
Part of him knew that what Ozzie said was true. He did get to close to the
"target," as Ozzie called them. Too many times he had felt bile rise into
his throat as he pondered the nature of the person attacking him, their motives,
and what they were leaving behind. But to completely disconnect from them,
to look at them as yet another part of the job he was sent to do, as if they
had no souls of their own, no meaning...He might as well be killing a part
of himself. To lose sight of the fact that these weren't shadows but people
with thoughts and feelings was to virtually kill his emotions, and while
he had already hidden most of them in the presence of the Mystics, he wasn't
sure if he could do that to people so much like himself, even if they were
magicless descendants of the Earthbound. In fact, he wasn't sure he wanted
to...
"I think that's enough discussions for tonight, Janus,"
Ozzie said, replacing his glasses on his almost invisible nose. "You go on
to bed now and we'll talk some more later." Magus nodded and got to his feet.
As he was leaving, he paused in the doorway.
"Ozzie, how are the raids progressing?"
"Raids?" Ozzie echoed slowly, making another mark on his
paper. "Oh, those. Pretty well, I guess. We've decimated the Human's food
supplies and fattened our own considerably. I don't think they can hold out
much longer. That's why I'm testing out these night attacks. Soon, there
won't be an army at all but a chaos fueled by hunger and fear. I'm sure by
now they realize that they are fighting a losing battle. But Humans are
persistent, like lice. You kill a few and there are more to take their place,
a veritable infestation of them in a land that should be ours. But they will
shortly fall before us. Survival of the fittest and all. You understand that,
don't you my boy?"
"Yes, I do," he answered. "Mind if I do some scouting
tomorrow?" He expected Ozzie to look up at him in surprise but was disappointed.
The Mystic leader kept scratching away on his paper.
"What ever for? I thought you were finished helping the
army."
Magus assumed a thoughtful expression. "This conversation
we had has made me become more aware of my place and what my duty is to you
and to the Mystics. Perhaps you were right when you said I never really
gave...killing...a chance." The word still stuck in his throat but Ozzie
didn't seem to care. He didn't bother to glare at the young man but his
irritation was evident in his voice.
"Well, if you think you're up for it, then be my guest.
Just don't get yourself into trouble. Now go to bed or go away because you're
distracting me with your chatter." The finality in his voice left no room
for discussion. Apparently Ozzie had decided the time he was willing to spend
on the young man was over with and he was once again trying to fill the role
of an aloof leader who has no patience for underlings. Magus gave his superior
one last look before leaving. There the fat green Mystic sat, a figure of
scholarly arts even though the magician knew differently. Ozzie cut quite
the comical figure with his robes and pudgy fingers stained with ink, the
tip of the quill pen tapping his pointed teeth as he thought what to write
next.
The halls of the Fort were bustling with normal activity
as Magus wound his way through the many passages and cross-chambers to his
room. The new one he had picked out worked much better for him than the old
one he had spent his childhood in. Firstly, it was bigger and resembled more
of a habitable living space then a dungeon cell. It had real windows with
real glass to block the cold and a fireplace as well. He had a closet all
to himself where he could keep a few weapons and his clothes. A large, four
posted bed with canopy seemed to be the common trend in the larger rooms
of the Fort and Magus didn't mind it one bit. It was much better then the
hard cot he had been sleeping on for most of his life. This bed had heavy
down quilts and a real feather mattress, not one stuffed with straw with
rags for covers. But his pride and joy was in the form of an old antique
dressing table with a mirror attached to it. Never having been very vain,
Magus at first had seen it as an item of junk to be removed. But after a
moment's thought, and a look at his reflection and the dirt smudges on his
chin and cheeks, he decided that as bulky and obtrusive as the piece of furniture
was, he'd keep it. He consoled himself that it was for cleanliness alone
that he had kept it so he could tell if he missed a spot while washing and
not some sense of conceit. Of course, he was starting to spend more time
in front of the mirror, trying to untangle the knots and snags from his long
blue hair with his fingers. One day, reflected, he'd need to steal a brush
from somewhere.
His chamber door opened at his approach, his magical aura
being enough to trigger it's magical seal into unlocking. Stepping into the
cool darkness of his room, he pushed the door shut behind him with his foot
and felt the magical ward kicking back into place. Trespassers who were not
actively invited to come into his domain would find themselves short-lived
if they tried to break past that ward. No one had yet tried to do so, since
no one really wanted to meet the Magus face to face. But he didn't feel like
waking up dead one morning because some knife-happy rival of his decided
to put a serious cramp in his style. So, he let the door take care of unwanted
visitors while he slept soundly. But now that he thought about it, Magus
realized that Ozzie somehow had a way of overriding his spell to enter his
room, especially during the times when he had nightmares. Making a mental
note to speak with Ozzie about that, the young warlock proceeded to strip.
Sitting on the edge of his bed, he slipped off his boots
and socks, letting them lay where they fell. Next to go was his shirt. He
was careful as he pulled it over his head not to let his medallion get tangled
up in the material. It thumped back against his chest as it slipped free
from the cloth and felt cold against his warm skin. The last thing to go
were his pants. He unbuckled his belt from which his sword hung in it's scabbard.
He placed it on the bed within hand's reach. Okay, so he was paranoid about
his continued good health. He couldn't be too careful in this day and age.
Magus fumbled sleepily with the ties to his breeches and had them halfway
undone when he just said skip it and left them on. They would be a bit
uncomfortable to sleep in, but he was too tired to care. Throwing back the
covers, he gratefully sank into the softness of his bed, snuggling into clean
sheets and feather-down quilts. Within a few seconds, he was asleep. And
while he slept, he dreamed...
"Lord Ozzie, I have returned from the night's activities,"
Slash announced, strutting into the room with as much vigor as someone levitating
could muster. From his position a few inches above the floor, he gave a bow
and remained that way till Ozzie acknowledged him. Unlike other times when
the fat green Mystic liked to torment his captain and let him stand there
for a few minutes, he decided to cut to the chase and allowed him to rise.
He didn't look at his captain but continued to work on the papers that sat
in front of him.
"So how did it go?"
"Pretty good. The Humans didn't expect us, of course,
and so we killed a fairly good number of them before we retreated. Sub-commander
Alassa is truly a fine example of female leadership. Such fine control! The
way she breached their flanks and rampaged across their tender spots until
they were begging her for mercy...What rapture it was!"
"I'm sure," Ozzie remarked with a slightly curled lip,
looking up to take in Slash's dreamy tone of voice and cloud-nine expression.
"I ask about the battle and you give me details on your extracurricular
activities. I never could understand how you could take such pleasure in
carnage and mix it so closely to those of the flesh."
Slash grinned and sat down in the seat Magus had occupied
earlier. "What can I say, my lord? War is my mistress. I am but her slave.
She can whip me all she wants, I won't complain. I live but to serve her
and her cause. She always repays me...in more ways then one." Reaching out
a hand, he lifted the book Magus had been reading and glanced at the spine
for the title. "What is this?"
"It's called a book, Slash," Ozzie told him gently, with
undeniable sarcasm in his words. "It has words in it and it usually tells
a story. And guess what? Sometimes, it even has pictures you can look at."
"Big fat waste of time," the Mystic swordsman grunted,
tossing the book back onto the table, purposefully ignoring Ozzie's biting
words. "Who needs such rubbish? Reading is for weak do-nothings like our
dear friend the Magus."
"A lot can be learned from books," Ozzie mused, looking
around the library. "I used to read a lot before I became Mystic Leader.
Now, there doesn't seem to be enough hours in the day. That, and no good
books have been written in decades. It's all this romantic garbage that Humans
seem to like. You know the type. All about Knights rescuing their fair damsels
from the clutches of the evil Mystics or some other such supposedly horrid
monster. I miss the good old days where people had good taste."
"That is a matter of opinion. I've never read a book in
my life and look how smart I am. Why, I'm a veritable fount of genius," Slash
argued, waving at himself. Ozzie raised one eyebrow and looked over his captain
dubiously.
"Somehow, I'm having a hard time believing that statement,"
he said at last, much to Slash's chagrin. He placed one arm behind his head
and rubbed his neck thoughtfully as he watched Ozzie spread sand over the
parchment he had just finished writing on so the words would dry faster.
"What's that?"
"What's what?"
"The stuff you're writing down."
"Oh, this?" Ozzie held up one of the pieces of paper.
"These are orders to the troops at Zenan Bridge. They seem to be getting
lazy over there. They are letting a lot of good Human corpses go to waste.
They should be turning them into Decedents instead of letting the Humans
take them away to be buried or burned. I mean, honestly! What's the point
of having necromancers out there if they aren't doing anything? They seem
to think that because we are the Mystics, our numbers are limitless. Sometimes,
Magus' reputation can have a downside. Our people seem to think that as long
as he's with us, we can always win."
"Can't we?" Slash asked in dead tones, staring at nothing
in particular on Ozzie's desk, his face unreadable. "I remember a time when
they used to feel the same way about Flea or myself. Hell, they even thought
the same way about you for a while, and that is saying something."
"Thanks bunches," Ozzie snapped. "Don't hurt yourself trying
to be nice."
"Don't mention it," the swordsman said, oblivious to the
comment's true intention. Ozzie sighed and wondered why he bothered at all.
"But don't you see what I'm driving at? Our people are more in awe of the
Magus then of their true leaders. We issue orders and they follow them, but
in who's name do they fight now? Not yours, that's for damn sure. The Humans
hate us, but for different reasons then they used to. It's no longer a simple
matter of 'the Mystic army' but 'the Magus' army.' That's a scary thought.
Somewhere, we lost control of the situation and now we're the ones treading
in his wake. He's taken control without even trying. I've tried my whole
damn life to do just that and what do I have to show for it? My partner is
incapacitated and he has me in check because of his magic." Slash lowered
his eyes and shook his head in disgust. "You were right when you told me
that he was a force outside of my league. I can't fight him in the same way
I fought against you."
Ozzie put his pen back into the inkwell and leaned back
in his chair, his great bulk sticking out in all directions. "I know what
you mean. Magus told me once that despite the fact that you and I had supporters
who would ban together against him if the need arose, he could muster enough
supporters of his own to wipe out any resistance from us. And you know what?
The sad thing is, he was correct when he said that. I doubt that either you
or I, or even Flea for that matter, have a handful of supporters left." The
fat Mystic reached for a small hand towel and wiped ink off his pudgy fingers
that looked rather like small green sausages. He seemed to forget the fact
that he'd been using his robes for the same purpose all evening. "I've never
told this to anyone, least of all Magus, but this is something that I feel
I can say to you."
Slash leaned forward, his expression serious. Ozzie never
confided anything in him, least of all something he chose to conceal from
Magus. "Go ahead, lord," he replied. "I'm listening."
"Before Magus came, we were just a bunch of Mystics striving
to survive in an otherwise Human world. We lived in uneasy peace with the
Humans and despite talk of war, we never did anything more serious then rob
a few stray villagers. And then, a strange boy with blue hair and powers
like we've never seen waltzed into our lives. Since then, things have slowly
gotten out of hand and I don't know how. But there is one thing I can be
sure of, and that is the fact that it took one young man to turn us do-nothings
into do-somethings. We've increased our gold and food supplies beyond out
wildest dreams. We're actually seeing our dreams of glory fulfilled. We're
even going so far as to fight together as a unit instead of separate parts
of one main group and dammit, we're starting to give a rat's ass for each
other. Our troops are actually smiling. They are going to their tasks happy
for a change. They want recognition for their deeds now. In the past, a simple
little speech or plaque was enough. But now, they want real recognition,
real rewards for their efforts. And you are right when you say that our people
no longer look to us as their guides. They look to Magus now because he took
the Mystic Hoards and made something out of them, which was something I could
never accomplish."
Slash was speechless at this declaration from his lord
and felt incredibly lost and alone for the second time in his life, the first
having been when Flea had been so badly wounded that time at Magus' hands.
He had never imagined that Ozzie would ever open up to him like this, seeing
that they were not exactly friends. But for some reason, he didn't mind it.
Once, long ago it seemed, he would have used this type of situation against
his lord. But now...
"In a way, I can respect Magus for his intuition and charisma.
He's done things that I know now that I would never have been able to do
on my own. And at the same time, I can't help but hate him for taking my
powers of leadership away from me. He's reduced me to his level." Ozzie shook
his head. "No, I'm below his level now. Our roles are reversed. He's the
one who truly matters around here. It doesn't matter that he doesn't actively
do anything for this army. He doesn't have to. His mere presence alone is
enough to inspire the lowliest soldier amongst us to action for a cause that
is now dubbed as his. You and I do the real ruling around here, but he gets
the credit for it now. That is a big slap in the face to us both."
Slash could only nod in agreement. He wanted to say something
but he didn't know what. So, he kept quiet and listened to the little clock
somewhere in the library chime the hour. Five bells. The sun would just be
starting to rise over the ravaged remains of a section of the Guardian army
that he and the other two groups had attacked. He thought back to the battle.
It was hazy in his mind, like a euphoric dream. He rarely remembered anything
about the fights he was in except for the fact that they had all been good.
But something stuck out in his mind. He hadn't noticed it at first. It had
taken Ozzie's revelation to get him thinking about the issue. Somewhere in
his mind, he recalled hearing their troops chanting some catch phrase that
he'd never heard before. As the words came back to him, he felt his face
darken. The chant had gone something like, "Hut, Sir Magus! Tut!" or some
other such nonsense. He couldn't remember clearly. But they chanted it as
they sliced down the Humans. The Humans themselves had been screaming, "Death
to Magus' troops!" as they fought. Ozzie was right when he said that Magus
was afforded the credit that their blood and tears had bought.
"By your leave, Lord Ozzie, I will retire to the baths
and then to my quarters. I'm quite exhausted from the battle," Slash said
quietly. Ozzie looked at him with something like worry on his face.
"Are you feeling all right? You've never complained about
weariness after battle before. You're not wounded are you?"
"No. It's not the physical type of weariness. It's mental,
I think. We've talked about some pretty deep stuff and I think my brain is
overloaded right now. It's depressing to think that everything we worked
so hard for is all due to one upstart rabbit." Getting up, the Mystic swordsman
bowed and backed out of the room, shutting the doors behind him.
Ozzie sat there quietly for a while, just listening to
the tick-tock of the clock that had chimed earlier. It was a rhythmic sound
that made his thoughts all the more funereal. He wasn't getting any younger,
he was middle-aged as the Humans called it. He had lived a long and productive
life. In his day, he had been one of the more feared and respected leaders.
Now, he was little more than a servant to a master who didn't even know he
was one. Part of him whined pitifully that this wasn't fair in the slightest.
But somewhere, deep inside, he felt a little pang of satisfaction. He had
succeeded in his quest to make Magus the ultimate fighting machine, even
if he was reluctant on that score, and what's more, he was strong both physically
and mentally. Yes, he was still naive in the ways of the world. He still
saw the world as a place that was full of opportunity and equality. Ozzie
knew better. The world was not so forgiving. One had to make one's mark in
history or one would swiftly be removed by someone better qualified.
Straightening his stack of papers, the Mystic sighed.
Well, he couldn't have asked for a better person to serve. Magus wasn't like
Ozzie or his people. He was harsh and arrogant but he was also fair and didn't
punish people unjustly. And, he admitted, his fame would probably indeed
lead them all to victory in whatever he set his mind to do. However, there
was still the matter of the Trial of Succession. All Mystic leaders had to
pass it. Usually, the Trial was a simple battle between the old leader and
the one who was trying to take over the throne. This generally resulted in
the death of the old leader. Ozzie knew that one day, he would probably have
to relinquish his tenuous hold on his position to a rival who was younger
and stronger then he was, and while he didn't relish the idea of dying, he
had accepted it as fate. But with Magus, he wasn't sure if that option was
the only one to be had.
He already knew that he was outclassed in everything where
the young warlock was concerned. His body was no longer conditioned for fighting
and magic had never really been his strong point either. If Flea had been
so easily defeated, he had no doubt in his mind that he wouldn't stand a
chance in a confrontation one on one between himself and the magician. However,
intelligence was a battle ground that Ozzie felt more sure of himself. That
was why he had kept Flea and Slash around for so long. They were his strength
where he was weak, just as he was their brain. They couldn't function correctly
without each other. Magus' greatest problem, in Ozzie's opinion, was that
he thought too much on nothing at all. His mind was swamped with little things
that a true leader shouldn't worry about. Things like friendship and trust
and honor were concepts that could not be afforded to someone who had to
remain strong at all costs. Ozzie knew that without his guidance, Magus had
little chance of surviving long in a leadership position. Yes, fear was on
his side, but there was more to it then that. Respect for power was something
that Magus had to understand. You can't rule when your people don't respect
your authority. After the war, what then? When the troops no longer could
use him as their figurehead, he would find himself with a bunch of disgruntled
Mystics who would run amok if not properly controlled. That was where Ozzie
would step in.
To avoid death, since that was the only other option for
him if he chose to follow Magus, he would become his councilor of sorts.
He would give the boy all his many years of wisdom and he would fashion Magus
into the leader he had the potential to be. But first, the Trial had to be
passed. There had to be some way to test Magus' devotion to the Mystics.
He had to get rid of the weak Human side he was displaying as of late. It
would be seen by others as problematic and erratic, two things that weren't
good for establishing a reputation as leader early on. Ozzie mulled over
the old idea of pitting Magus against the Guardian's famous Hero. That in
itself would be an interesting match-up since there was a fairly equal chance
that either side could win. All Ozzie had to do was find a way to arrange
it...But that was enough thinking for one night. Magus and Slash had the
right idea about going to bed. He yawned and rubbed his eyes, deciding that
sleep sounded like a good thing to do right about now. Extending a bit of
energy, the fat Mystic vanished to his bed chamber.
Dreaming was something Magus had grown accustomed to.
Usually, his dreams involved either Schala or ghosts of the people he had
killed. But this was not a regular dream. In fact, it was very peculiar in
nature since his dream patterns rarely deviated off their normal and consistent
course. What he saw in his mind, as his body tossed fretfully in his bed,
were two shadows having a battle atop a high and windy place. There were
onlookers to this battle, but how many there were and even where they were
was unknown. He sensed much anger and hurt radiating from these two combatants
as they hacked at each other with their weapons. To say they were fighting
was not correct. The shadows seemed to want to do as much damage to each
other as they could with little rhyme or reason to their movements. It seemed
as if they weren't very rational. Emotion was probably clouding their thoughts,
some small part of Magus mind informed him.
Blows were exchanged, but the shadow's physical bodies
were not the ones being harmed. It was as if the shadows had shadows that
represented their spirit selves. Though the shadow bodies ran with blood,
it was their souls that bled the most. The more they fought, the more ragged
their souls became. Eventually, the two began to slow down, their movements
getting more and more sluggish as their lives drained away. For some reason,
Magus had the distinct impression of ink running down a sheet of white paper
and yet in his mind, he called it blood.
At last, the fight drew to a close. One of the shadows
saw an opening and it drove it's weapon into it's opponent's body. The shadow
was pierced through the middle and slumped forward into the arms of the other.
The weight forced the weapon back into the winner. Suddenly, Magus saw the
weapon for what it was: a double sided sword. The blade went into the first
shadow, locking the two together. They stiffened with shock, both victor
and loser impaled and almost embracing, holding each other's arms in desperation
as they sank to the ground. Behind them, their souls fluttered like ragged
flags in a breeze. The Black Wind, the magician thought suddenly, was blowing,
signaling their defeat. They fell apart then, their weapons disappearing.
Magus heard heartbeats slowing in his ears as they reached for each other's
hands. Their fingertips brushed. They wanted to be forgiven and to be able
to forgive each other. But there seemed to be nothing but emptiness between
them. The gap loomed large and uncrossable and no forgiveness in the universe
could overcome it. And thus, they died, or so it at first seemed. In the
last instant, the winner of the battle struggled to it's feet and limped
out of Magus' line of vision. But something had changed about it. While it's
companion lay on the ground defeated, the dead shadow's soul fluttered forlornly
like a dying bird. The shadow walking away was completely alone, and in the
place where it had once appeared dead, lay it's soul, a mangled mess that
looked like so much discarded waste. In his mind, the warlock reached out
his hand and touched the dead soul. It felt faintly warm and wet. It was
disgusting and he jerked his hand back.
That was the end of the dream and Magus drifted off into
a normal, healing sleep. The event was promptly forgotten and shoved into
the dark recesses of his subconscious. And when he awoke late that afternoon,
he had no recollection of anything unusual taking place the night before.
The only question that went through his mind as he got washed up was how
in the world he had gotten a black, ink-like substance on the fingers of
one hand when he had been wearing gloves the day before?
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