Hidden Pasts Chapter 9
By Katie Herdman
During the night, Squall dreamt. He dreamt again of his childhood, but this
time he was not afraid or confused, he was content.
again at the orphanage, Squall and Andria sat on the beach. Andria was making
castles in the sand with her finger and he was staring at them, intrigued.
then came along and wrecked them, and Andria started to shout at him. Eventually
he went after she threatened to turn him into a bug. Laughing and jeering
he ran away.
looked upset so Squall promised that next time he would rescue her and that
he would always protect her.
awoke slowly. For a second he didnt know where he was, it
wasnt his room, then he realised that he was in Andrias room.
It was not quite dawn yet.
slept beside him, nestled into him. Her hand lay on his chest, next to his
heart. Suddenly it hit him, the guilt of what he had done.
out of bed slowly and quietly so he didnt disturb him, Squall picked
up his discarded clothes and started to put them on.
felt terrible; first he had betrayed Rinoa by sleeping with Andria, now he
was betraying her by leaving like this. Neither of them deserved what he
was doing. Looking once more he pulled the sheets over her naked shoulders
Squall walked quickly back to his room, he didnt want to meet
anyone on the way and have to explain himself, but
Seifer turned up,
right on time.
as good as Rinoa was she. Is that why youre sneaking back?
was amazed and angry, how had Seifer known.
worry Squally boy, youre secrets safe with me.
smug smile broadened when he saw the hatred on Squalls face.
old stud, he said and walked away, a spring in his step for the first
time in a while.
asked Fujin when she saw Seifer coming. He was smiling a lot, which was something
he hadnt done in a long time.
just found out something really funny.
Andria woke up from a deep sleep. It had been a long time since she
had slept so well. She saw the empty space beside her and remembered the
betrayal she had made.
hadnt liked Rinoa from the start, but she didnt deserve this.
What had she been thinking when she asked Squall to stay with her.
Andria climbed out of bed and started putting her clothes on. It was late
and people would be wondering where she was.
up her shirt, Andria noticed Squalls gloves lying just under the bed.
picked them up and looked at them. He must have left in a hurry if he had
left them. Maybe he had wanted to get away from her.
picked up her black jacket and slipped the gloves into the pocket. She then
put on the coat. She had to find Squall. Picking up her crossbow, she
Squall was in his room, thinking about last
night when Rinoa knocked.
I come in, she asked.
was so confused about everything, what he felt for Rinoa and his past with
Andria. Maybe he should tell Rinoa everything. No, that would break
thought we should talk, because we havent done that in a while and
Squall, I know you hate talking and all youll say is `
but youve seemed so distant lately, like youre, drifting away.
sat down next to him she was upset. It was like he had been there with her,
but he wasnt, like there was something else on his mind. Rinoa would
have given anything to know what it was.
wrong, he asked, afraid she knew his secret.
Maybe she shouldnt know just yet. Now wasnt a good time.
Squall, please talk to me, tell me whats on your mind, anything.
said those words with so much desperation that Squall almost blurted out
everything. It was all he could think of. At the last moment he managed to
suppress the words that he could feel forming on his lips.
started to sob and Squall hugged her, pulling her close to
Im not interrupting, am I?
stepped into the room, the crossbow hung over her shoulder.
looked at Rinoa who tried to make it seem she hadnt been crying, and
thought that in a second Rinoa knew and was going to shout at her and call
her all names under the sun, but she didnt and Andria breathed a sigh
leave if you want, Andria said, wanting to make a quick exit away from
Squall. It was a mistake to go find him. She could have asked Vincent to
give Squall his gloves back, and he would have without asking any questions.
it must be important. Squall, can we talk later.
nodded and kissed her goodbye. The kiss was awkward and Rinoa seemed surprised
at his display of affection, but she was pleased.
was trying to make a point to Andria, that his love for Rinoa was strong,
and Andria couldnt break it.
Squall, Andria, said awkwardly.
gave him back his gloves. Squall stared at them.
left them in my room.
he wasnt going to take them from her, Andria put them on the bed.
know you regret what happened, but can we at least
couldnt finish. She realised that she would never forget and that something
had changed between them. This was why she had never gone for her dreams,
in case he rejected her.
know, she said and walked away. Squall felt so alone so guilty, what
did he do now. His father had done something similar.
Squall whispered, Im not like him.
What do you want now, Andria said to Sati as she walked
was out on the balcony; it was her favourite place when she wanted to be
alone. She wasnt happy that some one had invaded her
stood and waited for her. There was an odd expression on her face.
she spoke, her voice quivered, He will try to find you now Andria,
he needs you. The hour of the Ancient Ones is at hand. Both yours and
Leraikhes blood will bring enough energy to summon them from the depths
of the earth.
just shrugged and said, I know.
should read this.
produced a book. It was old and the cover was made of leather. The pages
up a page Sati pointed to a section and Andria read it.
she had finished, Andria walked slowly to the side of the balcony and looked
can I do, she whispered,
if thats what it says, then
I cant argue with it, but I dont believe in fate, it wont
happen. Im gonna fight right to the end, no matter
cant fight, Sati said, youve hardly used your powers. How
do you expect to win if you cant fight?
really dont know
about anything anymore. All I know is that Im
trying to stay alive.
tried to hold back the tears. It was getting harder to do anything, she was
tired of fighting with no end in sight, only now she was being given that
end and suddenly she wasnt so keen on taking it.
you know that thats the first time Ive read the prophecy, its
been kept hidden. Why didnt you show me sooner
did not know until recently, I am sorry that its bad news. Andria
shrugged again, its not your fault.
are you going to do now?
walked out of the balcony. Sati looked sorrowfully out over the Alcauld plains.
Clouds were starting to gather.
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